New Year's Resolution

For my New Year's Resolution: I'm going to try and stop being a piece of shit.








-b

little victorious

I'm having little goals here and there
and it's really lifting my spirits.
learning to have people not take advantage of me.
learning to be stonger.
learning to be more independent.
and it makes me feel reeeeeal good.


and it's nights like this that I know I couldn't live
without my friends.
because they make me truly better.
and my real friends know who they are.


on a side note, I definitely shouldn't look
into things as much as I do.
and I'm learning not to.
and this in turn makes me
a little more victorious each time.
and I know that I have a new chance every morning.
I'm starting to live up to my tattoo for once.



-b

home stretch

realized I hadn't wrote in a while.
kinda went into hiding.
didn't want to face reality.
kinda been antisocial
(some of it was for a reason)
but that's not fair to me or you.
maybe I should just stop being a baby
and grow up for once.
or maybe I needed some time to reflect on some shizzzz.


but anyways, next week is finals week
and then I'm done for the semester.
hopefully I will get in touch with some people
I haven't seen in a while.
hibernation will commence with watching movies.
would you care to join me?


-b

baby, I gotta plan

I don't know what it is with females,
but I'm not too good with that shit......

see I always find, and I always find something wrong
you been puttin' up with my shit for way too long
I'm so gifted at findin' what I don't like the most
so I think it's time for us to have a toast........


never was much of a romantic
I could never take the intimacy
I guess that gives you an advantage
cause the look in your eyes it's killin' me


let's have a toast for the douchebags
let's have a toast to the assholes
let's have a toast for the scumbags
every one of them that I know
let's have a toast for the jerkoffs
that'll never take work off
baby, I gotta plan


runaway as fast as you can

walking CONTRADICTION

am I just messed up or is this how it's supposed to go?
am I not getting the point?
am I trying too hard?
am I not trying enough?
I've been here once before. I should know how it's supposed to begin and end.


TELL ME: what am I supposed to do, LeBron?
maybe I should be the one to disappear.

ehh, that wouldn't make much of a difference now would it?
had it all then threw it away.
selfish FUCKING bastard.

I wanna get rid of my cell phone
(I constantly check it to see if you even bothered)
wanna say I don't care anymore
(you better fucking believe I do)
forsake all of my friends
(you keep me going)
lock myself in my room
(I need to be around you to make me feel wanted)

I constantly want to give up and say "if you want to hang out with me, you getta hold of me", but I know I'll never be strong enough to do that. that and the disappointment would hurt too much to show that no one ever does.

maybe I should admit that I've made mistakes
and remind you that I've done this before
and tell you how much fun we had
should I be who you want me to be?




or maybe I should just disappear....






-b

i'm an asshole

and i probably deserve it.

Yep. Dat'll Do'er

So here's my second blog. After the second day. Haha. So I finally got my page to look nice and the way I want it to, so I'm happy. For now.

I need to start using my camera more often. It's pretty nice. Need to utilize that shit.

"One Headlight" by The Wallflowers is an amazing song. You can totally tell that Jakob Dylan is Bob Dylan's son.

I have been putting off writing my papers that are due next week. Need to get on top of dat. Such a slakkkerr as of late. Maybe it's the weather? Don't really know. All I know is that I need to at least start one of my papers tomorrow. Hopefully I can just finish the one. Then I will probably start the other on Thursday evening or Friday. I still haven't decided if I want to practice with Shaun on Thursday or not. I definitely can use the time to work on that paper, but I'm sure I won't if I had the time to just hang out at the apt. like i always do.

I'm still kinda new to the blog writing process. Feels kinda weird having a diary of sorts that other people can see. I'm sure no one will really read this, but it's there if someone wants to.

Well that'll bout do it.